balance by Sheldon Alexander

Balance

I'm trying to find the balance

Of not driving you away

And giving you enough space to stay

Finding balance between not seeing my kids, and showing up when I say I will.

If balance means loving and hating

Sometimes I might tip the scales and be biased

Let the good times roll

But you can only hold on to things for so long

My limit has a toll

And taxes can get too high 

if you're not careful

Some people gamble a consequences they can't handle

I'm still trying to find the balance

Of working on the clock and off-site

 I think of wage theft 

Less like rebellion

More like Recompense

Hardly a crime if my company is more felonious

I'm just an associate anyway

An accessory to fortune 

Not an asset but an excerpt to someone else's work

The feeling of getting the job but you haven't started yet.. 

or working 3 months to get laid off.

See, that's the "balance"

A tit for tat

If two libras loved, why are odds are against them?

When the truth is they're the ones who understand each other the most

Balance 

How I tether between life and death 

Wanting to give up

 not because life was hard

Or that I always lose in a game of chicken

But maybe being trapped in this rib cage is unbearable 

I heard about a bird that once drowned in its own sanctuary 

He told me he couldn't swim 

Only to end up found in a river

And the balance only told me to live longer 

Grieve for lost love and lives

Rejoice for neo genesis and rebirth

We story tell stars but don't recite it's inherent destruction, it's internal burning

Like a career ending tabloid 

If a star exploded in your face depends on how close 

will you live to see its beauty or perish in its anguish

I remember being once close to a star

But just like that. It vanished into a black hole

There was no bang

No burn

Not a sliver of light

Balance taught me

To let go. 

And still hold tight.